Today is my birthday. It’s time for “Happy Half Century” to me.
The Big FIVE-OH.
Thanks to my baby brother for reminding me (via text) late last night that I am “only Half Baked” [his words]. 🙂 So, I guess I still have a whole lot more cooking left to do in the “earth oven” before I’m considered “done”.
I’m not going to lie, I am having a really hard time with this year’s”number”.
I don’t expect any of you to sympathize. In fact, after posting this someone is bound to find a way to inadvertently make me feel worse.
Yes, I know I am supposed to be happy I have lived “this long.”
Quite frankly, I should have died many years ago.
Several times over.
For my younger friends, I am not supposed to complain today – as a symbol of “aging gracefully.”
For my older friends, I am not supposed to complain today – because, let’s face it, I am still younger than THEM.
Either way, no one really gives a rat’s tail how old I am…
So, I will have to work through my depression and grief on my own.
And yes, despite my attempt at humor, I really am experiencing sincere sadness.
I am grieving for all that I have lost. Time. Years. Youth. The dreams and hopes I assumed by this age I would have fulfilled…
Don’t worry. I promise I’m going to wake up tomorrow, drag my middle aged carcass out of bed, plaster a giant [slightly crooked] smile on my face along with some extra makeup to hide the “smile lines” and start making this Milestone Year a memorable one.
I have a feeling this year is going to be one for the record books.
I’m thinking up a list of goals, dreams and projects I’d like to conquer this year.
Do you have any suggestions?
I have been blessed with fifty years of life on this beautiful blue island Earth. Over fifty years I’ve survived my way through a big pile of crappy things. But, I’ve also made a big pile of wonderful memories. And, God willing, I’m just getting started! I have so very much to be thankful for. Way too much goodness for me to spend time moping around over numbers, right?!
Just sayin’. – MoSop